Emily (dear_audio) wrote,

The person this is to will probably never see this, but thats ok.

Dear you know who you are,

You are the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I don't know how on Earth I could risk something that meant the world to me for something so insignificant. But people make mistakes, and that's mine, and now I'm paying the price and there's nothing I can realistically do about that. Not only are you the most horrible and disgusting person I've ever met, but I know you're proud of it. If you were ever to read this, you'd be smiling. But that's ok too, because I'm pretty sure you'd be fake smiling, because you have the lowest self-esteem of anyone I know, including myself. And hey, I can't blame you for that because you're not that great a person. But whatever some people are just naturally anti-social losers with a complete inability to do anything but daydream about what they want to become and will never be. Looking back, I'm really glad that I lied to you. I never ever loved you at all, and I knew it. And I laughed about it. And I still do. Because you're pathetic. But we all have our bad parts, I know mine inside and out. I know I'm a bad person, in fact, a horrible person for what I've done. And I know I'm not the most amazing person in the world to be with either, but at least I don't go to your level. I'm sorry that you we're so jealous and couldn't get over it, but I'm more sorry that I even wasted my time and ruined a good portion of my life even considering you. I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to fix what I've done, that's up to other people and chance. All I can do is recognize every mistake I've ever made that had to do with you and be sorry for every second I wasted. Obviously, I wish you the worst of luck in life, which isn't hard to do considering how delusional and lazy you are. I'm glad that at least for now I can be with someone who I really am happy to be around and someone who I don't need to make excuses to not spend time with. The only way I would ever want to see you happy is if you were with the person you should've been with in the first place, and even that isn't for your sake. I don't know what's going to come of this, and I might lose a huge part of my life, which is my own fault and I'll have to deal with but at least I'll know that you're gone for good and I will never have to see your disgusting face ever again. Thank you for teaching me a huge life lesson.

Sincerely yours,
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